olrigghtie!!! i shall not go on msn for a week!! reason being.. i spend way too much time online.. doing nth! literally!! i dun chat much.. i just stare at the msn pop-up popping up and down and before i know it an hour has just past me by.. hahha!! this is how stoner i can get la.. *faints* and so i think i shld use my time more wisely.. *fist to heart* XD
today's great man!! God spoke to me during the CLM today! thru da teaching.. and tt's exactly wad was disturbing me a few days ago! so cool right?! wow. aniwae i talking with my frends recently.. from my class.. and they were saying how they sneaking in to pubs.. tried drinking..? one classmate i rmb beginning of sec3 actually asked me how to buy alcohol at our age... and i actually told them to get someone else's ic.. thinking back abt it i feel so amused.. how can i say tt??! shldnt i be telling them like dun drink or sth?? hahhas aniwae.. ya so they were talking abt it.. and i was feelin like.. woah they actually been to pubs! and drank!! i only beer i drank was like root beer?!!? bo kick sia.. thn it really made me think.. issit really fun? and so am i missing out on all the fun cos im so caught up with all the spiritual work so-called? thn God spoke.

i thank Him too that im not so trapped in my own spiritual bubble that im blinded abt the things tt's happening around me.. i mean for someone who grew up in a christian environment i think i've seen quite abit.. things like bgr, ggr, clubbing, drinking, smoking.. i've come across them.. though i may not have experience all of them myself.. but at least i know tt im not oblivious to such stuff..
arghh actually i wanna blog abt lotsa stuff... but i dunno how to express it.. but i just feel bothered somehow.. the feeling just so disturbing!! aiya just dun think abt it la. i better not let the wild side of me get in the way mann... *cheeky smile*
i met with 2 pervertic malays on my way home today.. *shutters* they suddenly came on the bus and sat so close to me.. i was like wad duh...!!! siao ar. then one of them started reaching out his hands to touch me la!! i was so freaked out.. i just hopped off my seat and went down the bus... eee-er.. *feels harrassed* those guys are really deprived mann.. i mean.. like i this kinda pattern they also want??!!! *shutters again*
hmm.. i seem to be quite calm abt it hor? hahhas actually i was abit traumatised.. but i try to act tough la.. thn end up cos i so clumsy i look more like some ah soh.. *shoves aside*

aniwae... caregrp today!! monica came to join us!! XD really glad to see her! XD and after tt had coreteam meeting with wynneh! hahah was very refreshing!! prayed and worship god for 1 hr! woohoo. =) really enjoy praying now.. esp after i fasted last week.. i think my praying stamina increase!! and now i wanna increase my running stamina.. =D gonna really tone up my flabby bodeh! wahahhas
was looking at some old frends profiles.. hmm.. wonder how they are doing now.. havent seen them for quite a long time.. hmm... aii nvm.
today's service was jus so magnificent!!! so many people leh!!! overflow mann... some gotta go africa... i mean the room. hahhaas and really glad to see jocelyn and amanda and peishan and xinyi and jacintha and monica!!! XD ok actually im glad to see everyone. wahahhas. im realy touched by amanda's sincereity! she brought her frend... then altar call...

amanda: eh yao bu yao receive christ?
joanna [e frend]: er... bu dong leh... pa mama ma. [meaning: scared mother scold]
amanda: qu la..
joanna: er.. *looks around*
-people start going down*
amanda: xia qu leh.. eh.. go la.

another incident tt really touched me was during the holy spirit baptism.. i was praying for peishan.. i cud tell she really wanted it.. but she didnt get it yet.. and she asked...

peishan: u take how long to get it?
me: oh.. i got it quite fast..
peishan: how long they pray?
me: abt a few min..
peishan: *nods head in silence*

it was so moving.. as i look at each and every new believer i can see so much potential and sincereity in them... it makes me guilty tt sometimes i didnt give my best to them.. but it's ok! im gonna do it. im gonna commit to my new believers and really go e extra mile for them! yea!
had a really relaxing day today... no sch!!! *pop poppers* finally... 've been looking forward to this day since the beginning of the year.. hahas ok la.. not so kua zhang.. aniwae had retreat today! XD fun and delicious. but i cut my foot.. now the skin is dangling. WAHAHAA!!! *peels off plaster and shows everyone* it's fleshy.. okok thn after tt wenta cut hair with yihui... her hair's like a bunny now.. and mine is lop-sided. --;; i feel abit empty w/o some part of my fringe.. actually i think the hairdresser made a mistake.. cos he got the uh-oh face... *raises eyebrow* but it still looks ok.. i think.
im gonna fast for the next whole week.. from monday to friday.. for these few things:

- new believers to be retained.
- for people to release their full potential. and really grow to love Him so much more.
- new leaders/seeds to rise up.
- for myself to be even more focus.. and to ask wisdom from God.
- to be able to fulfill my CBF pledge.
- for 6pts? hahas. long term goal.

hmm.. it's been a long week.. but im feelin fruitful!.. though not everything is going right but i know tt i've done my best.. now it's for God to intervene. things are gonna change for the better.. i can feel it. ;)
was pretty angry just now.. but actually i forgot wad i angry abt ardy.. i only rmb tt i lost my temper and i got angry abt myself losing temper.. haii.. hate it lorr!! *hits my own chest like a gorilla* but nvm i've got hold of myself. *grabs body* aniwae had shepherding with wynneh just now.. wahhahas.. had a great time with her.. and im gonna do this!!! next week im gonna fast and pray.. everyday.. mon to fri.. except for cg day and shepherding days. yupp! so pple if u see me eating food please snatch it away from me..! wahhaas. gonna pray for my group and my sow-ies.. ALRIGHT MANN!! *punches air and shoots off into sky*
woah.. this is so corny and abit freaky.. i was in canteen today with yihui after sch for lunch.. and we were discussing how to get to know da sec2 girl.. thn i suddenly saw her.. then i "eh?! isnt tt her??" thn yihui.. "no..??" so i got really confused.. "dun tell me she got twin ok..." eh but they seriously look so alike!!! er.. so like how am i suppose to tell them apart now?? *sianjibua-ly amused*
i got off the wrong side of bed today.. feel so mean today.. *shakes head* woke up extra early to go school early to find the girl who i wanted to sow on... end up i go school cudnt find yihui.. suppose ta go with her cos i have no excuse to get to know her.. abit disappointed.. but nvm! this friday this friday!! then suddenly rmb this friday i have literature test... havent even finish reading da book lor... feel so walaoo... --;; aii.. *rolls around* wadda sad entry... nvm! *sings* always look on the bright side of life!

*edited version*
i got off the left side of bed today.. but nvm! it's great being mean!! *nods head* woke up extra early to go sch to find da girl.. but in e end didnt.. nvm! maybe she was sick.. so maybe she's not in school today. wahhaas. then i got reminded of lit test! thank god mann.. if not i never finish reading then will very walao liao..

hmm.. sounds better..
arghh.. having a headache.. and my world is spinning around.. but aniwae.. *throws headache away* today has been a really fruitful day!! cos i ate lotsa fruit. wahahahhaas *guffaws* er.. ok. yea.. in school i rolled dice for maths lesson.. so relaxing.. wahahas.. love it! thn after school wenta follow up on the 2 sjc girls.. wahahs they very farnie..

me: eh so wad makes u wanna convert ar? *looks to jocelyn*
jocelyn: *talk*
me: *nods and continue eating*
amanda: eh why u never ask me?!
me: *laughs* yayaa??? u leh??

me: oo.. so last time u wad religion ar?
jocelyn: free-thinker..
me: ic.. thn u wad?
amanda: orh.. i last time typical ah lian.
me: *confused* huh?? hahahahas!!

thn after tt wenta rc and bath. hahas. thn after tt wenta meet jiamin with her new believer.. =) and i came back home with a headache.. >.< argghh... *groans*
1st week of sch is gone! X) and im sec 4!! *points to myself* .. uh.. hurhur. apparently i've nth to blog. --;;.. i just feel excited abt next week.. gonna do so many stuff!! actually i also dunno wad im gonna do as yet.. hahahs. uh.. i think im really makin no sense.. *walks off lamely*
feel so good to go service after such a long 1st week... hahas.. it was refreshing and just so nice la. hahas. now tt im back in school.. i really treasure every moment tt i have with my spiritual family.. feel so at home with them.. even though there're many problems.. but i just love being with them!! X) not tt sch is tt bad la.. just tt it's.. different. hahs. yea. and even though it may not be like a really extremely great service but i enjoyed myself and i enjoy being the presence of God!! XD really hope to spread this joy with the rest of the human beings out there. hahahs. esp my sheeps and contacts. muahaha.
muahaha back to school.. have been eating seaweed since yesterday in class... think im gonna turn green soon.. *looks around* ok nvm not farnie. muaha. hmm 've got lots to do this year.. think God's gonna stretch me lots this year as well.. actually im a little excited and scared.. hahas.. wonder how am i gonna make it thru the year.. it seem almost impossible.. but nvm god is the god of impossible!! X)
went my aunt's house just now for lunch and dinner.. feel abit sad.. some of my relatives i never even see b4.. but was also kinda surprise.. quite alot of them are catholics.. they were talking abt going church.. cool sia.. aniwae i was sleeping like half of the time.. cos they were playing some card games.. aniwae tmr sch re-open le!! er. ya. hahas. and im gonna be sec4.. cant wait to finish my o level..
*looks around suspiciously* .. tell u a secret.. happy new year!! happy 2005!!! yay!! im now at zhiwei's house and everybody's looking at me blogging.. muahahah. aniwae had coreteam retreat just now. and now oso. had pizza hut. muahahaha took lotsa lame photos.. haii again!!! ugly photos of us again!!! but nvm la. waha. thn went arcade.. thn had mah jong showdown at ah zhi's house. *guffaws* my lovely shepherd cooked lovely scrambled eggs for all of us.. i feel so loved. MUAHAHAHAH. *guffaws off*